AdamD
Catasetinae Crazed
Ok, I've checked myself in, admitted I have a problem. I'm a chronic compulsive shopper of plants. Hours I spend obsessing, lurking on vendor sites, combing fine details and anxiously awaiting the day I click on and ! Alas! An update! An email or new listing on eBay! Just to sit back, put it in the memory bank, and peruse another site. Weighing options, fantasizing about new plants, packages in the mail, paypal transactions, exchanging kind words with vendors, rationalizing, trading, selling new for old, neglecting "less desirables" until they are in poor enough shape to justify throwing them out to make precious space for that new exciting cross...
Tell me I'm not alone here. It's been worse, it's been better. But today, or rather, over the past few weeks, I've come to a realization. An epiphany. If I spent half that obsession time and energy on caring for the plants I already have... Spending money on better suiting my conditions to tailor to my plants' needs and wants... How much better of a grower could I be? And in turn would it not satisfy me infinitely more than looking, browsing, putting plants in shopping carts, watch lists, with no intent on ever pressing that commitment button.
I have made a vow to myself. No new plants for 8 months. That puts me at my birthday next year. In that time, I will spend my time, energy, and focus on making myself a better grower. Improving conditions. And finding ways to better fill my time other than obsessing!
My name is Adam, and I'm an addict
Tell me I'm not alone here. It's been worse, it's been better. But today, or rather, over the past few weeks, I've come to a realization. An epiphany. If I spent half that obsession time and energy on caring for the plants I already have... Spending money on better suiting my conditions to tailor to my plants' needs and wants... How much better of a grower could I be? And in turn would it not satisfy me infinitely more than looking, browsing, putting plants in shopping carts, watch lists, with no intent on ever pressing that commitment button.
I have made a vow to myself. No new plants for 8 months. That puts me at my birthday next year. In that time, I will spend my time, energy, and focus on making myself a better grower. Improving conditions. And finding ways to better fill my time other than obsessing!
My name is Adam, and I'm an addict